I'm well. I hope you weren't worried.
I wish I could find time to keep up with this but it's almost impossible. Between work and home and all things in between it's too hard to find the energy to write. My mind goes blank and I really don't know what to tell you.
I'd love to chronicle Diego's milestones and the things he says and does on a daily basis. I'd love it. I can't do it.
I'd love to write about how exciting my life is. I can't do it. Mainly because it's not very exciting and I don't think you'd like to read about the laundry that's never ending and that the dish washer runs way more often than I do.
I'd love to write about how down I've been for over a month now but I don't want it in writing. Not on here. Every day is a struggle. In no way am I saying I'm depressed but I'm disappointed. Know that my husband is great and so is my son. It has everything to do with me and nothing to do with them.
I'd love to write about how my mom has had a lot to do with the person I am today. I'd love to say it has had only a positive impact. It hasn't. I can't place sole blame on her because I have the power to change it now.
I am happy and excited to say that this weekend I've been happier than I have been in a few weeks.
I don't share my feelings well because it really doesn't do any good. More often I end up feeling alone, so I just keep it to myself or let it out on my husband. God bless him for the burden he carries on his shoulders every day. For him I am truly grateful.
I always talked shit about Myspace. I still do.
I'm on Facebook. I think you know my name. Look me up if you'd like or e-mail me and I'll tell you my name. ;-)
Thanks for listening. I hope I have more to post soon. I just had a free second for once in a long time and I thought I'd let you know that I'm still alive and kickin'. Not so much kickin' but I'm alive and that's great!
3 comments:
We're all on the same boat and thank goodness for those around us who put up with us - true love?
I think we all have mother issues. Unfortunately.
But you're in my thoughts. Chin up. (That goes for both of us.)
about the mother issues?
I have a mother that critizices everything and anything form the way I speak to the way I dress. I'm 32 yrs old and I still let it get to me. It was just until recently that I realized how sad it must be for her to walk around feeling so much anger, dissapointment, sadness, that she fels the need to take it out on others.
I have learn that if there's not reaction to her actions it ends there.
I was bless with a beautiful husband that treats me like a princess, treatment that I don't always know how to react to, since ya estoy acostumbrada a las criticas, and I can't accept compliments or believed them. But I want the vicious circle to end here with me. Now everytime my mother says anythng I just tell her "si madre yo tambien te quiero mucho" Hopefully one day she'll understand how hurtfull words are, and if she don't that's her problem I have my own life to live.
Take care
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