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Fonz took me shopping today. He bought me a cute ass skirt. I lub him.

When we went to the mall I had this crazy feeling that we might bump into someone who I so did not feel like bumping into. We walked in JC Penney’s so I could buy me some flip flops to match my cute ass skirt. I looked over and there he was. A part of my past I wish I had never let Alfonso in on. I’ll tell you the story about him one of these days.

J was at the mall. I saw him, who knows if he saw me. I thought my heart was going to fall out and run away. So I screamed “BABE” and told him we should be on our way. He said “what’s wrong baby?” “I’ll tell you when we’re outside”, I slurred. When we got outside he asked me if we had left because there were too many people. I said no it was one person in particular. Immediately I saw Alfonso’s face change. He was upset. I don’t blame him. He said for this reason exactly I feel we should keep our pasts to ourselves. It’s not the fact that he was my boyfriend in the past because he wasn’t, he said, it’s the fact that he was a friend and a lover. A lover because he was or is a married man. Yes, for shame.

You see right before we moved I received a phone call from J when Alfonso was sitting right next to me. Alfonso felt disrespected and I can’t say that I blame him. Someone gave J my phone number. I changed it when we got married, for this reason as a matter of fact. My number made its way around Las Vegas during my single years. I didn’t want unwanted phone calls. Someone gave him my phone number. I believe that it was with the intention to cause waves between Alfonso and I. Little do they know that where there’s Alfonso there I stand and where I am proudly stands Alfonso. There are no bumps we can’t trip over together and no falls where we won’t have help up. Alfonso and I have been thru a lot in our seven years together. He knows what he has and won’t stand to lose it. He loves me unconditionally and with all my truths. He loves me bare ass nekkid. I’m not talking about my body but my soul. We love each other throughout. Mi alma gemela.

I feel bad because he got so pissed off. I rarely ever see him in that light. I never knew he had a jealous bone in his body until that phone call came thru. He’s not upset anymore but I still am. I am because instead of just acting like nothing. I reacted. I shouldn’t have. My emotions are always to the extreme.

I love you Alfonso, to the extreme.