My parents just left. I made dinner for the family tonight. I love it when my parents come over. They always look so proud to see my home and how it's progressing.

I'm typing as Fonz is on the phone so if I quit abruptly it's because he came in and sometimes I don't like him to see what I'm writing.

He's been sad all weekend. He heard a PSA this weekend that made him so sad. It was of a Fetus speaking to the mommy as she was trying to abort the child. It reminded him of our loss. He imagined that the baby was speaking to us too. We didn't abort but he imagined it that way. He cried as he explained it to me. I wish I could erase his pain. Hell, I wish I could erase mine.

I must think about it at least twice a day. It was such a wonderful feeling. To know that someone was going to love me unconditionally.