I'm still alive ya'll!

I’ve been super busy with work and come home dead tired. My new bed time has become 7pm on a good night and 6pm on an f’d up night. I took today off to relax a little because things were getting hectic at the work place.

Diego is chillin’ in the uterus havin’ himself a good ol’ time. We’re getting closer. I can’t wait to meet the little guy. I keep having dreams about him. The last one was I forgot to drop him off at my mom’s house before going to work and when I remembered I was 4 hours late for work visiting a friend. You want to know what he looked like in my dream? A glow worm. Remember those? You memmmmber. Yep one of those. Maybe I secretly wanted one of those as a kid and that’s why he looked like that?

I’ve also fallen deeply in love. With my husband. It’s a different kind of love. Yesterday, every time I thought of him my jaw would hurt and tears would well up. Do you ever get that in your jaw before you’re going to cry? Much like when you imagine a lime or something mouth watering and your jaw locks up? No. Me neither. I adore him. I know I gush alllll the time, but I can’t help it. I’m blessed. He spoils me not with material things but in the way he treats me. He got a new job early July with the union and also working with my little bro. He’s so happy. His whole face has changed since starting. He loves his new job. He’s also been kickin’ it with little Eric (my little bro) a lot. I’m glad. I don’t want to be his only friend. He went shooting with my brother yesterday. Not on a drive by or anything guys. Don’t get scared. He went out to the desert and was all piu piu (that’s a gun sound in Spanish). When he came home he was like a little boy “and then, and then” choking on his words. That made my day. He’s happy. I’m happy. We’re all happy.

My nieces and nephew are coming over tonight so that the brother mentioned above can take his lady out on a date. We’re going swimmin’ but maybe to a movie first. I think they’re more excited about swimming though. Because it’s at night. I love them chirren.

I’ve thought more about staying at home after the baby and then I chicken out. I still don’t know what to do. I may go back for a few months, save up some money and then say adios. I would really like to stay home but just am scared to do it.

Some birthdays have gone by and I gave no birthday speeches. I’m sorry Dad and Joey. I love you both. I’ll do it belated k. k.

I’ll write more when I can but right now I’m waiting for my friend to come over so we can stare at each other on our off day.

I missed you!!