Friday, January 06, 2006

Ugly on the Inside

I’ve had a knot in my throat for a couple of days now. I want to vent and I try to. I want to vent to someone who has compassion or feels what I’m saying. I want to vent to someone who won’t say “be patient” or reply with a “well check out what happened to me” story. That doesn’t help me. I don’t want to vent only to give you the opportunity to tell me you’ve been thru the same thing when we live in different worlds as two different human beings. I want someone to listen to me, genuinely listen. It’s not a big deal and it’s petty shit but it’s bothering me. What’s bothering me isn’t the petty shit but is that I feel so selfish and just internally ugly right now. I can’t shake it, as hard as I try, I just can’t.

9 comments:

nancy said...

Yamell I was just reading this and I want to you know that if you need to talk about sometime and need to do it in person. I will be glad to come over and talk to you. I love to listen

Yamell said...

Nancy you're nice.

Monique said...

Sweetie...if you ever need a shoulder, if you ever need someone to vent to, someone who will just listen...call me. (323)945-8085.

Coco said...

I don't know if I can be of help- but I'm here for you corazon...
I'll e-mail my phone ;0

Mira, the best way to get your head together is to go to a PROFESSIONAL- a therapist! They are trained to be objective, to help you help yourself... A few years ago, I sought professional help- without it, I probably would've become AMARGADA!

Sabes, yes friends help-BUT we are too "attached" to the person who is in pain, and no matter what a friend says about being objective- nomas no, because we want the best for our friend, therefore, we are biased.

Seek out professional help-

Let everything out- SCREAM, CRY, STOMP, CURSE & PRAY!

o tambien puedes ve y habla con un sacerdote.

Un fuerte y caluroso abrazo.

Bev said...

Or you can just spill the beans here and we won't say shit about our lives or give you advice.

Yamell said...

Thank you Coco - I'm not really seeking advice but just wanting to let some frustrations out. I don't think I'm that troubled yet. Yes, I complain a lot but hey that's me.. I'm a complainer, I fix it and then I complain about something else. What I want to vent about is petty stuff.

You know the roommate drank all the milk type of stuff. :-)

Thanks Bev, I want to vent it on here but it's kind of embarrassing that I was so upset over this stupid stuff.

CiscoKid said...

Until you are ready to talk, no one is going to persuade you otherwise and when it comes out, it's going to come out all at once.

You'll know when the time is right

Golightly said...

Thats what the good old internet is good for---venting!!
I hope you feel better

Yamell said...

Thanks Cisco and Golightly. I do feel better.